Bipolar - NEEDS MEDICINE

Well its been a thrilling last couple of days... when someone with bipolar doesn't take their medicine.

My husband got up the other night (he works the night shift) in a very bad mood. My daughter was spending the night with the mil and going to a day trip with church - her friend was also spending the night with her. I was in the kitchen when my husband called down to his mothers and told her to tell our daughter to get home she was grounded. She was in the shower at the time. Do you know the reason he was grounding her........are you ready......she did not wipe off the table!!!! Can you believe this!!!! I normally don't say anything when he is like this. If you ever been around a bipolar person you will know what I am talking about. So I asked him when she got back was she really grounded he said yes - well I turned and took her back to her grandmothers! I still can't believe I did it. But I stood up to him. Was I right in doing this? He asked me later if she was down their and was going on the day trip - I said yes! Never said anything else about it again. Then I did notice him taking his medicine again. I guess he realized he was being a big JERK!!!!

It is so much fun - never know what one day to the next will be like!!!!!

Til later

GOOD TIME

Had a great Fourth - went to a friends house and cooked out and did fireworks. Had a great time.
Only bad thing happened was my husband left the dogs outside (Lucky, Bella, KC) - Lucky and Bella are afraid of the fireworks, so I had to go home and let them back in. Lucky was scared so she got under the deck and was so muddy!!!! So after we got home Lucky had to have a bath - oh that water was brown by the time I got done. It was bad.

It was really good talking to my friend - she moved from across the street about two years ago - I miss her so much. We don't get together much now, so it was so nice to be able to have girl talk. I guess I am not the only one who thinks like we both don't feel attractive anymore. Why is it that we go through these kind of times - I really never have felt so bad about myself so it is been real hard on me. I get so down - don't want to work on losing weight - can't get motivated but you think I would but I guess I just need to work on myself. I need to set some kind of goal but damn those M-M keep calling my name!!!!!!!

Til later

TRYING A NEW DESIGN

Wow - I can't believe how hard it is to try and find a new design!
I like this one but its not exactly what I want but it will do for now.

I would like to try and figure out how to do my own. I think it would be neat to do that.
If anyone has any good ideas - let me know. I would really like the help.

Well I hope everyone has a great 4th!

Bye

The Beginning

How to get started.....

Well I hit the big 40 a few months ago and I keep asking myself - where the time went!

Been married for 15 years, two kids, me ADHD, husband bi-polar, child that is ADD/ODD and one that is mental free. (I guess I should say normal - he is the only one in the house that does not have mental problems)

So in other words I live a very stressed life! Never no what mood will be waiting for me when I get home at the end of day. My daughter - if she is going to give me complete hell when I walk in or when I get my husband up for work will he start in on me for some little thing. Sometimes I just don't want to go home. I hate that feeling but it is my life.

I want to start this blog for me to help me with my feelings - I am tired of keeping them inside of me. I want to try and put them down and maybe start feeling better about myself. I use to be happy all the time - I want that back. For me and my family.

So come along for the journey if you want!